This was cement on day 1. 

We were kind of awkward with one another, almost all turning up in grey.

Ready to set of for pahang. 

*Superman*

HAHA, this was major distraction for us, it's so hilarious!

We talked bout random things on the bus. 

Sleep alternating to Taxi, watch Zi Jian does his sweet shooting thing; owning Vik in the bet and Vik having to do a forfeit which was to teach our Cement cheer to the whole of iDARE.

Our first day went pass quickly, simple.

On that day I'll probably never have guessed how close we would be at the end of the camp.

Planning how to do up our catapult but I'm still camera ready ^^

Having to report at 715am was really no joke. 

With people coming in that bit late and yay, we got punished with 360 jumping jacks.

We did 300. Really I swear. It was not 240, we did 300!

Day 3 was the highlight of the camp for me.

We got to sit on a lorry up to the cave, not that it's a big thing but still~ haha

Abseiling first, something which I wouldn't have done ever if not for iDARE.

I was honestly freaking out at the top of the cliff, the 4 who were afraid of heights were all there together.

Freaking about going down the high cliff, haha. 

And that's where I got my first bruise.

Oh, and because we dare, we pulled out a snake's shedded skin out from the cliff.

Then the cave exploration, mad cool! haha

I especially like the theatre part and the crawling part.

A really good experience. I can't believe I dared to crawl through first (:

Up for some 4WD after our lunch at the cave. 

It was MAJOR loads of fun in there. Just floating, playing around, splashing water at others and then receiving your karma for splashing too much at others. HAHA

Best of all was doing the iDARE cheer in the shallow areas.

Cement had many #funfacts memories here.

And this is also the place where i found my dear dancing partner: JOANNE!! :3

We were amused by ourselves but everyone ignored us, its their lost!!

I think we were amazing dancers in that cold water :P

Didn't do much that night, it was just planning for our skit which really brought us super close

4th Day: Rapids, WaterRafting, FlyingFox, RiverCrossing

The sudden daredevil side of us to just jump into those currents that will push you underwater for awhile despite having those life jackets on. 

I would never have dared to do all these what more in teh tarik like river.

Letting the current carry you, jumping into currents, getting flipped over. OhGod. haha

But it was fun, other than getting flipped, i hate that.

WWR didn't feel trilling till the part where we just decided to be bad asses and jumped off our rafts :DD

Did superman/model style down flying fox (first girl for that batch baby!!)

Then crossed the river back to the other side. 

My group guys peed in it and we told the other groups to clean the rope after their pee. 

Then our preparation for our skit.

I think we were damn awesome out there. SUPER HILARIOUS in fact.

I just keep hearing laughter throughout it.

Credits to our Geisha Sengyang, Manager XinYing, AhMa Joanne, 3 Little Pigs Edwin, Keith, Xavier, Pedo Businessman Stephen, King Daryl, Black Geisha Advik, and the others who played supporting rolls.

After everything we had the video, revealing of angel & mortal as well as prize presentation.

I'm super shocked to receive the iDARE Spirit Award. Thank you.

If you want an honest statement, i really didn't believe i was good enough for it.

I shall not go into details but ZiJian, Keith and Daryl knows.*hides face*

My dear mortal: Vernice

Keith who i knew since RC8

MY DEAR OTHER HALF

Dear bro of mine

There, upon receiving the award.

At our very last debrief, all that emotional talk about what we feared most.

A talk that got me thinking for a really long time about all that was said.

(A photo with my dear SF and also the SSF, ZiJian)

Shopping with the dear girls and all was a bonus. Really.

5 days just went pass so quickly and when we were on the bus gonna cross the border then it hit me that the camp was over, we're heading back to Singapore.

All that dreading feeling of going back to the busy life as well as the fact that I won't be spending the whole day doing random stuff and being with my Cement family just made me down.

Then they had to start playing all those emo songs which made me cry halfway while singing.

I don't really know why i cried but those tears just rolled down anyway, non stop.

Cried again when we did our last iDARE cheer at the walkway and started saying goodbye.

Thus explaining those red eyes of mine in photos. 

Thank you iDARE Sept'12 Family, iDARE Rebirth!

Period, Broccoli, Taxi, Dodo, Blastoise, Cement. Thank you for everything over those 5 days.

It'll be something that will be etched in my memory for a really long time. 

I couldn't ask for a family better than this.

I love you iDARE Sept'12, a lot.

Trying to build up Bella Dust isn't easy at all.

It's building experience after experience and the stress accumulated makes it really tough to carry on.

The amount of money and time thrown in, the countless of problems you'll occur.

Sometimes I really start to wonder why after countless of setbacks I'm still staying in this.

I hope it isn't just me being stubborn but more of me not wanting to give up something I enjoy.

Perhaps I'm just not strong enough to pull myself through everything.

I'm not financially stable to even try out all these type of stuff.

Guess I've no choice but to just pull myself through all the rough times.

*God please help me*

Cement met up yesterday to grab some group identities and skit stuff.

As sell as to come up with cheers and skit, etc.

Probably one of the more relaxed time that I've had for awhile.

Now it's just me, my work load, stress load and all the negative thoughts.

Really need to get rid of the crap flowing through my mind. 

YAY! FIRST DAY WAS WAYYYY BETTER THAN I EXPECTED.

Started off on a bad side but heyyy~ 

The moment the manager saw me, I'm already looking at one black face.

Anyway.. I was appointed to do front at RSH Suntec City.

Which practically meant where all the shoes were. 

The outlet is humongous! The whole reason why I was afraid to work there at first. 

But my co workers are really nice people. If not for them, I would probably have been extremely screwed.

I think I was quite a burden at first, slowly catching up after quite awhile.

They made me feel comfortable and all, quite a nice experience working with them.

To prove my point, my burden acts of that day:

1. Ask where's the storeroom for _______ brand every single time I needed to find size (when the day just started)

2. Taufiq/Fabien had to come into the store room to help me find the shoe quite often.

3. Uncle Lee had to make sure I drank up and was ok during work.

4. Everyone had to take over quite a few customers from me cause I know nuts bout the shoes.

5. I climbed too high and didn't know how to get down and Taufiq had to help me grab a ladder.

6. Taufiq/Fabien had to show me around, teach me a lot of things, clear up my mess even though I might only be there a day.

I really owe them a big thanks for everything, and an even larger apology for being such a burden.

If I do get posted there again, I'll work harder and be less of a burden. 

There were really hilarious times in the store. The 2 Indian man, that troublesome Indian guy, that small cute kid, that annoying kid and more.

It was Priya's last day too and I kind of got her into trouble cause we were talking, hehs.

And now I owe Taufiq brownies. Hahaha.

But whether I get to work there again or not, I think I'll drop by and say hiiii~

Once again, I really thank you all for making my first day at work so memorable. Really appreciate all the help that you guys gave to me this burden newbie. <3 p="p">

Finally had a facial today over at body shop.

My face feels cleaner!~ 

but.. after the extraction and stuff it looks horrendous. 

I've never seen my face look more reddish and stuff since 3 years ago.

What's worse, one of my eyes was swollen.

Major low self-esteem as I made my way home from Paragon.

*Ignoring all those judgemental stares*

ChorYing came over to our house today to make some stuff.

So... 

화채 !!

It does not really look appetising I know..

But after it's chilled it's really super good refreshing dessert! ^^

Mummy and I kept having mouth after mouth of it after dinner.

*freshly taken out from the refrigerator*

Seems like no one uploaded any photo from pre-glow so..

Pre-glow was fun! ...and tiring. hehs.

Although the destination changed from sentosa to school, it was still great!~

Whatever i was wearing was so.. awkward.

I seriously felt like i was wearing PJs out onto the streets, taking public transport  ._.

Started off with ice breaking games: Fat penguin, polar bear.

Then the first game. Think was something to do with dead ant or something along that line.

ohmygosh! i swear that was so dead tiring especially since it was under the hot 2pm sun.

When it was orange's turn to chase really damn cannot.

9 of us chase the other 5 groups which had more people then us.

Chase until my black-out problem almost happen again. Sighs.

Seriously hate how weak my body is.

The second game was super shiok~

We had to eat up the fruits (2 bananas, 2 lemons, 1 watermelon) without using our hands.

As weird and unhygienic as it may sound it was so refreshing that you totally ignore the fact you're digging your face into the fruits and that it's on newspaper.

The lemon was sweet for a lemon and the watermelon really (Y).

I think we really not bad, 2nd to finish! 

ADVANTAGE FOR NEXT GAME, WEEEEEE!~

The third game was something like running man.

Teamed up with stephan and mak (I seriously look damn short between them TT)

SUPER TIRING LAH HOMAIGAWT!

Because it was so hot, we decided to just lepak in the cc for awhile before heading out.

The moment we head out is when we got super suay. Everywhere we go sure meet SFs and end up having to run for our lifes.

Escaped quite a few times by hiding at staircases, then running for our lifes again

Orange really super bright, we could see our own reflections from buildings far away.

Ventured to parts of the school that we probably never knew about.

Got caught by our own SF at the stairs, sigh pie.

Thanks to our secret helper (; we finally got 1 envelope. (got that bit of achievement)

 Pretty much spent the rest of the time running for our lifes again. 

We were soooo sweaty that when stephan rest his hand on my shoulder i can feel my shirt getting wet!

We were THATTT sweaty.

and tired, so after hiding at blk 56 level 3, we decided to chiong back to the cc for aircon.

The moment our lift reach ground floor, came out and there was rachel.

Literally ran damn hard to our secret hideout for aircon. 

It was so embarrassing, ohgawd.

Totally cannot be bothered after that and we just lay there for aircon. 

It finally ended and we were dead beat.

Dinner, like finally. PIZZAAAAAAAAAAA ^^

This shall come to a sudden end cause i'm just too lazy to carry on typing.

Annyeong {:

Countdown:

9 more days to BKK

15 more days to iDare!

Seriously, what's wrong with the current generation of ours?

Full of hypocrites, 2-faced people, backstabbers, and all this drama mama wu-ha-ha?

Not that I'm all perfect but at least i don't do things against my own conscience.

What I'm mainly focusing on now is this whole blogshop industry shit.

Especially among all these smaller blogshops, yes including mine.

We fight for customers, trying to gain reputation and growing our name in this industry hoping to become well known like butteredgun, wonderstellar and so on.

I can totally understand if people start selling at prices wayyyyyyy below market rate just to gain reputation.

That is totally understandable, really.

But to the point that you go around and try to ruin someone's reputation?!

Don't you think that that is just fucking too much?!

Yeah, so i just joined back less than a month ago and i've faced tons of problems within this 1 month

I'm not giving up, Still pushing my business on. 

I'll try all ways and means to carry this on. 

If you guys think i'm scheming, some of you are just fucking cunning.

I shall just get straight to the point:

STOP TRYING TO FUCKING RUIN MY REPUTATION.

My friend saw and told me about it. 

STOP BEING SUCH A KEYBOARD WARRIOR AND COME CLARIFY WITH ME IF YOU HAVE THE GUTS TO INSTEAD OF HIDING YOUR FUCKING FACE BEHIND YOUR COMPUTER SCREEN TALKING BAD BOUT ME!

I'm not afraid of you guys, i've contacted some of your personally. 

Continue to post whatever shit that you want, my conscience is super clear.

I'll prove to you guys that i'll make it big. Watch me. 

And when i do, i'm gonna sponsor another kid :D (sounds so random but yes).

To SX: i could guess it's you since there's only you who purchased that item from me. But seriously bitch please?! I scam you?! Don't be ridiculous, you ordered from preorder 3. first of all preorder 3 isn't close at all then and neither have you paid. I contacted you after partially settling my account problem, you even ordered one more item and now you go MIA without payment. Come on lah, don't be such a no life. Are you that bo liao?

GET A LIFE LITTLE GIRL. You're maturity is that of a kid!

To LD: you said i scam your friend, name? if you dare reply my pm i confirm setlle things clearly once and for all. if you don't dare, well... I guess you're just one of those keyboard warriors as well huh. Mature adults la huh, settle things clearly and not going around ruining people's reputation la please. 

God! what has the world come to this days -.-

From the very first time i met you through all those apache outings and stuff

and then we realised that we both are DPA students into business studies. 

Being in the same group for our very first NP camp ever!

And then in the same class for DPA.

Going through the 8 weeks of DPA

then bintan

and then through preps for BAOC.

to being SCs for phoenix 3 and 4 for BAOC.

Till we graduated from NPP, and now in separate classes.

Seriously one of the best bros ever! i swear!

You've always been there for me when i needed someone to rant too and all. 

Well, almost all the time. 99% yah.

Even in the library standing in the middle of no where when i was so depressed that time over.. actually i kind of forgot what i was depressed over. hehs.

To the point that people really believed that we're siblings (;

Probably cause we have similar eyes too. HAHAHAHA.

And your endless superb baking, omg~~~

I will like bao da your baking with some dao huey. haha

But really, super thankful for you being there for me like almost always. 

Wishing you all the best in all you do and hopefully we'll end up in the same class for coming sem.

Love you bro <3 p="p">